
I am a blubbering fool right now. My heart is all happy for Bug.
This afternoon in the mail I received a card written for Bug from her birthmom. Her birthmom hasn't contacted Bug or us since she last saw her at 6 mos old. Bug is 10 1/2 yrs old now. I remember what she said on that last visit. She held Bug and said this wasn't her baby. That she doesn't know this baby. I was sad for her and for Bug.
Today I read the most beautiful message from her to Bug. I am going to write part of it here-
....Please feel free to write any time and ask me any questions you may have for me.
....I love you very much and I thank God every day for people like your parents for loving you as much as I do.
I can't wait to show her this. I wonder what emotions she will go through after reading it.
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Then I think about DQ. When she hears about this she is going to go through her "it's not fair..." rant. Not good timing for her. But this is life and it has to be worked out. DQ has a deep, deep sense of loss with her adoption. It's in her core and needs to still work on it in future therapy. Maybe we'll have some good conversations from this. Who knows.
Then there's Andrew. He'll ask why he didn't get one from his birthmom. I'll try to explain it in terms he can understand. But he won't have any of it. He won't understand. He will argue that I'm wrong and keep asking why he didn't get one.
I'm not going to give the card to Bug today. She is soooooo cranky. I've never heard such a crabby old lady in a 10 yr. old body. She slept over at a friends house last night. I don't think the girls actually slept. Maybe I'll get to go to bed early tonight! Saturday night and that's what I look forward to.
Seriously, I'm looking forward to it!